stillpoint

hospital gurney

overhead white light

spinal tumor at C2

postmorbid - paraplegic

lost coordination, balance, strength

no location left side

lacking sensation on right

neuropathy constant

electric shocks each step

excruciating throbbing

hips akimbo

stumbling bifurcated stride

slipped - fractured fibula

unrelenting fiery torment

setbacks devastate

physical emotional exhaustion

doctors prescribe

medication, stimulation, repose

technicians scan

to no avail

loved ones too

live with chronic pain

energy and attention wanes

social gatherings limited

daytime chores distract

slow walks for stamina

nighttime disassociations

until sleep intervenes

ricochet between modalities

body/mind reprocessing

yearn for a stillpoint

elusive bliss

dissolve expectations

observe without judgement

surrender into ease

learn from the body

a path forward